v-thiopia

i am going to begin a new training record- i am losing track of the days and i am losing track of my training. over the past year i have really dedicated myself and found strength to go deep andpull out difficult workouts and race performances-
so now after my last marathon- to which i showed up only slightly convinced that i had trained well, i am rededicating myself to the work that it takes to be one of the best-
whether i actually show improvement- wheteher i actually turn out a good performance- at least i will know i tried my best-
this knowledge i hope will give me peace of mind and help me enjoy the lifestyle i have chosen.

I don't want to be an athlete or a architect or a mother or a wife or to be valued for any or all of the above. i want to be all of those things and combine them somehow in a way that they don't suffocate one another.

That is probably the hardest goal to achieve. Probably it is going to be harder to achive that then a 2:30.
But its alright- its okay to have some attainable goals and some lofty ones.